Only 4 More Days!!!!

Happy Tuesday Everyone! Hope the Memorial Day Weekend was fun and safe for you all! I had a very busy weekend. I pretty much worked, and worked out at the gym, went tanning, and slept when I found the time. I also bought my outfit for the audition yesterday! It is really classy and sexy, and I can't wait to post pictures up here when I get them. Only a few more days until the audition and you should never under-estimate the power of prayer so please continue to pray that God will be with me to help me do my very best! Again, without Him, I am nothing and can achieve nothing....but with Him I can be everything and more. As well as you! So continue to pray and I thank you all once again for your support, love and friendship! I am getting really excited, and a little nervous too. There is a lot at stake for me with this audition, and I really want to do my best. I hope that I will be able to make you all very proud of me. I am where I am today because I never gave up the dream, and that is inspiration enough for me to work even harder now that I have the opportunity of a lifetime. I now have the chance to put all of these years of practice to work. All the long nights I spent in the studios, all the long night's I spent with the band I sang in, and the long shows I did, and the dream I've dreamt since I was a little girl. I think we all get our chance, our moment, that one opportuntity to shine....this is my time, and I will do everything in my power to show I have what it takes to go further and be bigger. And I can't tell you enough how much your support means to me. I mean it. I love you all. All of you who have taken the time out to write me a note of encouragement, a phone call to wish me luck, a prayer at night to give me strength and guidance and comfort. Everyone of you have truly touched my heart, and I think I've gotten teary eyed reading almost all of your emails. It is so amazing to feel like so many people believe in the dream I've been believing in my whole life. Your relationships with me are all so valuable, and I can't thank you all enough. Seriously. Know that each and everyone of you are in my prayers as well. And I hope that you know I will always be here to support you all in your dreams as well. And don't ever give up. Don't ever stop dreaming. Life is about dreams, only you can make them come true. Others can help you along the way, or open up doors, but it is you, and only you alone, that can choose to walk through them. So no matter what, thank-you, I love you, and God Bless!

Love Emotional Stephanie!
he he he :-)

Words of Support from Krissy Lamprecht...

Hey Steph-

My brother emailed me your message you sent him. I just want to let you know that you are in my prayers. You will do wonderful!!!! I know you're a great singer and dancer, and you desearve it. I will definitly be praying for ya. Good Luck. I wish I could be there.

-Krissy Lamprecht

T.G.I.F.!!!

Happy Friday Everyone!

Well One week to go! It's crunch time! You all must really be praying well because I had the worst sore throat ever, and everyone around me at both of my jobs and even Tim seem to be pretty sick with colds and stuff, I felt one coming on strong, and my throat was swollen for a few days, and my throat is actually feeling ten times better each day! I don't work my other job tonight, and Tim and I have a "date night" planned tonight. I think we're going to see that new movie with Nelly and Adam Sandler. If it's not sold out. I'm so sleepy today though. I worked both jobs yesterday and didn't get home from the second one until midnight, and had to get up at 6 a.m. It's hard, it catches up to you sometimes. But you gotta do what you gotta do right? There is a church near my work that I usually go to during the day when I can, usually on my lunch break. It's nice to go there and talk to God and Jesus, and Mary. I feel better, and my days are so much better when I go there. I'm going to go today too. I haven't been praying to win this audition and competition. Only that God helps me to my very best and I've been praying to let Him know that I'm accepting of His will for me. If I do my very best then the outcome either way was His will for me, and I have to continually pray to let Him know that I trust Him, and I know that He always has my best interest at heart. So with that the poem below was sent to me by my good friend Amanda Costilla. She is a beautiful friend, and our friendship has overcome some pretty tough trials. But in the end her good heart and mine saw each other through one of the most unimaginable tragedy's anyone should ever have to endure. A Year and a half ago, our cousin Wayne L. Costilla was murdered. He was only 20 years old. Amanda was Wayne's cousin on his dad's side, and I was Wayne's cousin on his moms side. The details of our story go much deeper, but we each grew up and made our own memories with Wayne, we were both in the hospital holding his hand and praying for him while he lay helpless on his death bed, and we both had to say good-bye as we buried our 20 year old cousin, we both cried the same tears, and we stood over his grave. And we now both have come together to be there for each other, the way Wayne would have wanted us all to be. I've learned that you can have everything in the world you've ever wanted, but without the love, support and someone to share it with...it means nothing. I guess I may be jumping around now...but my point was that I appreciate everyone in my life, I appreciate every moment with each person, and I always remind myself to live and love as much as you can today, because you are never guarenteed a tomorrow. So thank you again, for your messages and prayers, each one is so special to me, and you all give me even more strength to go out there and ROCK IT OUT! So all my love, please continue praying for me, and the COUNTDOWN BEGINS TODAY!!!! ONE WEEK - 7 DAYS AND COUNTING!!!!!
Thank you! Love you!
Stephanie

A message from my friend Amanda Costilla...

I know your anxious about the audition, and I know your nervous, excited and scared all at the same time. I am so excited for you. This is the next step in your stardom. Remember all of us are praying for you and talking to God and Wayne asking for this one blessing. You are destined to shine Steph, whether it's today or 5 years from now. We all know this. Including God. Here is a poem for you I found perfect for this occasion - - Praying. God will answer our prayers in some way and form. If things don't go your way today, they will some day. Talk to you soon, Amanda....

God drew us to His Son and took our sins away;
Could we ever doubt He hears us when we pray?
He heard as we cried out far from the Shepard's fold,
And by His grace and power - He made us whole.
Now as His sheep, walking close, sheltered in His care,
How could we ever doubt He hears and answers prayers?
Sometimes the answer is "yes," sometimes "no," or "wait,"
But always in His perfect time - never a moment late;
And if we pray for healing and out thorn is left to bear,
It's never because our Lord doesn't hear or care;
A much greater work is being done, as He strengthens us within,
Conforming us to the image of Christ, perhaps to help a friend;
Or He's simply drawing us closer, loving us even more,
Teaching us to trust Him more than ever before.
And when He grants our petition, making the answers clear,
Should we be amazed as we see His hand so near?
Perhaps not....
But, I never cease to be amazed at God's goodness, love and care,
As I see His awesome power, revealed in Answered Prayer!

8 DAYS UNTIL THE AUDITION!!!

Good Morning once again everyone! Hope you all are doing well. There are only 8 more days left to the audition and I am more excited than ever!!! I bought the cutest shoes at ALDO the other day. They only got 3 shipments in Minnesota of this pair so I'm hoping not every girl in line has the same ones as me, but I guess if they do, it just means we all have really good taste! I tried to post a picture of them on my site, but there was something wrong with flickr.com (which I manage my posts on) so if I don't figure it out, you can go check em out on ALDO.com. I think they're called Eestee. Anyway, I've now introduced whole grain back into my diet, which will help me to keep muscle mass, since this Atkins thing totally eats up your muscles after its burned everything else. So today I had some low-carb yogurt and whole grain granola for breakfast. Oh, and a smartwater. They are yummy. I also bought some really cool throat spray. It's the only one that the celebrities use especially when they go on tour. It's called Vocal-eze. You can Google it and see what it does. It's awesome though, it coats your throat and breaks up any mucus (i know gross) that you may have from any foods you ate, or if you have a cold, so you sing clearer than ever. It's got a lot of echinacea in it too, which helps build up your immune system. Lets see....what else...oh, my mom and I are going to BEBE to find my outfit for the audition. The application says come dressed as an artist, so I have to go all out for this one. I promise to take a lot of pictures and post them on the site when I'm finished. Oh, another thing.... I found out how they go about notification if they want you,
1) They have the right to tell you right then and there if they choose to do so...
2) They will notify by phone that same night...
3) They notify you the next day after the auditions.

So we won't have to wait long to find out! Please continue to keep me in your prayers. I am fully aware that without God I am nothing, but with him...I am everything he wills me to be. So pray that he helps me to do my best and that he helps me to shine like never before! I love you all, and I appreciate the words of support. If you scroll down you will see I have posted all emails that I have been sent from you. It means so much to me to have such loving friends and family. Your words are more powerful to me than you could possibly ever know. So thank you from the bottom of my heart. God Bless!

Always,
Stephanie
P.s. make sure you check back often for updates!!!

Words of Support from my Cousin Christine in Kyle, Texas...

Hey Stephy,

I was just watching the Oprah Show and Ms. Mariah Carey was on, she was singing "We Belong Together." I love that song. I bet you could sing it just the same or better. You even look like her. That's one song you could try out to. Anyways enough about Mariah. That is so great that you are trying out for The Band. I wish I could be there to watch you live. I am so proud of you and I admire you for the strong and loving person you are. You are going to make it and make it BIG. I have been keeping you in my prayers everyday and I pray that you never give up and I hope all your dreams come true. Cause you deserve it. You have everything it takes. Puffy will love you and no matter what happens, We love you. Even if this does not work out, that's because God has something else lined up for you. So go for it and go kick some Booday!

Yee - Haa,
All the way from Kyle, Texas
Your Cousin Christine

11 Days Til the Audition!!!

Happy Monday! I just remembered that this coming Monday is Memorial Day and I have it off from both jobs! Yeah! I can catch the sales at the mall for my outfit for the audition! So that rocks! Gerardo Aguirre and I are going to the gym tonight to go through a whole workout routine that fits me. Concentrating mostly on weightlifting, I'll work on cardio after. So far so good, everything is going well. And yes, I'm still so excited! I hear if you make the audition, they do call backs for you to come and audition right away the next day. But that could also be a rumor. Hopefully they just tell you right then and there! Oh, that would be the best feeling ever! I would probably cry knowing me! ha ha. Well, I'm feeling a little more prepared everyday and I'm positive it is because of the constant prayers and candles being lit for me. So thank you all again, I can't thank you enough, your support means the world to me. If I get this chance, my life won't be the only one that changes, I promise you that! So I send to you all my love, and prayers and best wishes in your lives, and I appreciate you all!

Love Stephanie, p.s. 11 more days!

Fridays are my favorite!

Good Morning All! I am feeling great today. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, but more than usual. I worked at my other job until 10:00 p.m. and then grocery shopped and put some laundry in. But it's always a good day when it's Friday! No work tonight either, well paid work. I'm going to the gym, hopefully with my Timmy if he doesn't have to work late. I miss him. We've both been so busy and so tired that we haven't gotten to spend much time with each other at all this week. I'm getting more and more excited by the day for my audition! I wanted to thank all of you again for your support, and loving emails you've been sending. I read them for a boost, and I appreciate them all. I really want to make all of you proud, and I ask that you keep praying for me, to do my very best. Thank you all so much. I love you.

Stephanie

Words of Support from Cousin Alexandria G. in Texas!

It's me Alex your cousin,
How are you. I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you 24/7. I think that you are very special to me. I am very proud of you and think of you as a role model. I watch the show or at least when it was on and that you are definitly going to make it, but I don't wanna jinx you. I can't wait to see you on the red carpet you will look like a star even better. And when you do bcome a celebrity which you will, I can say, "That's my cousin and I love her so much." I think you should sing a Selena song. I think you sing very well when you sing the Spanish one's. Hopefully we can stay in touch. And I am happy that you are happy. Love you very much, Alex G.
(P.S. You don't need to be on a diet you are very beautiful.)

Limo - July 2004

In the Limo August 2004
Originally uploaded by StephyGem.

Lindz, Me and Rich Melzer partying in the Hummer Limo! Fun night!!!

One Million bajillion faffillion dollars!

One Million bajillion faffillion dollars!
Originally uploaded by StephyGem.

Me in August of 2004 in Las Vegas next to a real One Million Dollar glass vault! Don't we make a cute couple? ;-)

It's a rainy sleepy day!

Hello all! How are you? Well, hope you like the pictures I posted, I'll post more when I can! Guess what! I have a computer now! Tim gave me his other Dell laptop, but I haven't gotten my wireless card yet, but it'll be nice when I do because then I'll be able to post more frequently. I'm so excited. I love it, it's a cute little one too. Anywho I went and worked out last night with my friend Gerardo at my Gym. He is graduating from the University of RiverFalls in Wisconsin this year for Personal Training so he taught me all kinds of neat and tricky moves to buff up! It was really fun. He's such a great friend. I couldn't fall asleep for the life of me either last night, so I'm super tired today, but I'll get through it. I had a few nice surprises in the past week or so, including.... 1) My friend Jennifer is pregnant with Baby Number two! 2) My old friend Tammi Longbehn contacted me through classmates.com and is getting married in August! 3) My Computer! I'd have to say it's been a crazy week. Tim and I also celebrated our 11 month Anniversary on Sunday! I'm still head over heels in love with him. As for my audition, still counting down! Only 16 days until my audition. I've been practicing my dancing and singing, but still not sure what to sing or wear. But no matter what, I'll make sure to take lots of pictures, and have my mom take lots of pictures so everyone who couldn't be there can get a glimpse of what it was like. Watch out MTV! ha ha! Well Love you all! Take care! Check back often, and if you have any song suggestions please email me with them! thanks! bye!

My favorite Picture of My Timmy!

My favorite Picture of My Timmy!
Originally uploaded by StephyGem.

This is my GQ baby! The number one stunna! I took this picture when we were in Vegas. It's so crisp it looks like the background is one of those fake backdrops, but its not! It's the real deal, Las Vegas! (I miss it!)

Tim & Rich

Tim&Rich
Originally uploaded by StephyGem.

Here are the boyz again! And notice the tounge? I'm tellin you, that tounge things replacing those played out bunny ears!

Timmy & Steph in the Limo

T&StephLIMO
Originally uploaded by StephyGem.

Here we are again in the Limo during Eric's crazy b-day bash, about a month and a half after we started dating! We're so cute here.

Eric's B-day Party August 2004

LIMOFUN
Originally uploaded by StephyGem.

Gettin comfy and cozy in the Hummer Limo! (we've had a few here)

T&ME

T&ME
Originally uploaded by StephyGem.

This is me and my baby sittin in the Benzo lookin cute. We one first place for the cutest couple award. Notice the tounge sticking out, you'll see that in a lot of pictures. I think its the new cool thing to do! I feel left out! I catch on late! ha ha

18 Days until my audition!!!

Happy Monday Everyone! How are you all? Well, I'm doing fine. I'm getting more and more excited as every day passes awaiting my audition! It's really really hard, just to wake up and go to both of my jobs everyday thinking about whats coming up! I'm sure you all have been praying for me, and I want to ask you to continue to do so! I love you all, and believe me once I get the chance I'm going straight to the top, and I'm bringing you all with me! :-) I've been doing great with my diet and have been working out regularly. Yesterday I woke up, went to church, went to the gym and then went tanning, and then to work. I must be doing much better because I used to do 20 minutes of cardio and feel tired, and yesterday I did a whole hour without even realizing it. I've been doing cardio for my breathing and weightlifting for toning. I've been trying to average at least 400 + situps a night as well. I did 600 the other day. I'm working my way up to 1000 a day. The more I do it the easier it gets. I'm already pretty small though, and I don't want to lose my butt so I have to be careful! ha ha. I'm still trying to figure out what song to sing, so if anyone has any suggestions please e-mail me with them. I have some in mind, but I'm still not sure. I can't believe its almost here. I know I keep going on and on, but I want this so bad, and I just keep praying that God helps me to do my very best. I know its what I was meant to do. I guess all I can do is my best. I was watching the first season of Making of the Band 3 and all I could do was think of how much I'd be working my ass of just to be in that position. I know that other girl that was on there, wasn't sure whether her true calling was for school or music. I couldn't believe it. If that would've been me, school would have been long gone and my passion for this music would have come first. Music is not just something that you listen to on the way to work for some people. Music is passion, it's in your blood. And even if you try to ignore it, and push it aside, and you try to put all your energy into something else, it comes back stronger than ever. And it captures you and your heart, and I know that for me, music is the very key to my true happiness within myself. I am at my very best when I'm doing music. Whether its writing, singing or dancing. I love it. It captivates me. It's my heart and soul. It is what takes my life's moments, the good and the bad, and turns them into a song. Written or spoken, that it turn becomes a reflection of who I am, and what I have learned and been through. Music has never been a choice for me, We have been intertwined for a lifetime. When I was little I used to say that I just wished that everyone in the world could hear me sing, just once. The feeling I get when I make people shiver and get chills when I sing is indescribable. It's the best high, it's addictive it's beautiful. Think about what one of the few things in the world that everyone has in common is... We all love music, no matter what kind it is, we all love it. I would give anything to be given the chance to finally be seen, to finally be heard. And my time is near. And this is what I've been working towards all of my life. This is for all the people who kept asking me when I was going to do something with that beautiful voice, this is for those who told me to sing them to sleep, this is for those who asked me to sing at their weddings, this is for my classmates in highschool and a simple Homecoming coronations, this is for the talents shows, the auditions, the State Fair, the Cinco de Mayo, Star Search, this is for my family gatherings where the jukebox and stereos would shut off so I could sing, this is for the 1st karaoke machine my parents bought me when I was 7, this is for the first time they found out I could sing, this is for my Grandma Genoveva Guzman whose beauty and sound was passed down into me, this is for every person in my life who ever believed in me, this is for those who looked for me on American Idol, this is for those who text messaged me and called me to tell me about this audition all at the same time. This is for my cousin Wayne who always told me I could do it... who is now paving the path from the clouds of heaven, this is for my friend Jennifer who was always like my own personal PR person, and for Michelle for being my personal stylist for free, when you could have been rich off of me by now, of course to my parents and my brother and for Tim who loves me now, and who supports me in every dream and aspiration I've ever voiced. His love for me is true, compassionate and pure, and finally to God for blessing me with this heavenly gift, my calling, my addiction. I have been able to bless others with my voice all my life and now I believe its time to show the world the gift I have been given from God. We are all here for a reason, we all have a calling, a talent. My advice is to embrace yours, and pray and be the best you can be in everything you do, even if it's not idealy what you'd like to be doing, let God's will lead the way, and open your heart to let him in to help guide you. He always there, you just have to know how to truly let him be apart of your life. After all, if you don't ask, you cannot recieve. May God bless you all and help you all on your journey towards achieving your dreams as well, and don't ever think for a second that their unattainable. Keep preparing yourself, and when your really ready, God will let you know. God Bless, and I love you all! Keep me in your prayers!
Love Stephanie!

Words of Support from Craig Holliman....

Steph,


You are great.
I have no doubt that given the opportunity you will shine.
Don't ever give up your dream because it is so reachable.
I'd sign you myself if I was able.
Do your thing girl.
I'm sure we will work together again as well.
Take Care, perhaps I will be there.


Craig
Blackroom Studios, Minneapolis MN

Words of Support from Aunty Jeanette....

Honey, I will be praying for you and lighting my candles well. May God
continue to bless you and give you more strength and more confidence. We
Love you and can't wait to see you on T.V.
Love, Your Auntie in Georgetown.

Jeanette

Words of Support from Cousin Belinda in Texas....

Congrats girl! I am so proud of you. You have come so far and no matter what results you should still give yourself a big pat on the back and be proud of what you have accomplished so far. I can see you doing something really BIG though... I have faith in you and I will be praying for you! Good Luck and keep us posted. I am so excited for you.

Belinda

I'M AUDITIONING FOR "THE MAKING OF THE BAND 3!"

Hello everyone! If you don't already know, and if you do... just a reminder that I will be auditioning for "The Making of the Band 3," at the Mall of America on June 3rd of next month! If you haven't been keeping up to date on "The Making of the Band 3," Puff Daddy, a.k.a., P-Diddy...a.k.a., Sean Puffy Combs, CEO of BadBoy Entertainment has a show on MTV called, "The Making of the Band." This season has been aired on MTV already but during the final episode last night, P-Diddy made a shocking announcement! He cut all the girls except for 3 and was starting yet another nationwide search for the rest of the group! The 3 girls that he did keep, are not guarenteed a spot but are being allowed to try out again with the next set of girls, so the slate is still empty. He is coming here June 3rd to the Mall of America at Sam Goody Central, where auditions will start promptly at 10:00a.m. I am low-carbing, and working out like a crazy women starting today, to be fully prepared by then! I'm hoping and praying that this is the opportunity that's going to change my life. I know that you have all stood by me throughout my journey and now is when I need your support more than ever! I can't thank you enough for all the support you've all given me, and that alone is enough to make me go out there and give it 200%. So I am asking you, if you cannot be there to support me during the audition, please send me your prayers every night. I am so excited, and when June 3rd comes around I'm going to make sure I'm more than ready for this. I've had pretty good luck so far at the Mall of America, so I'm hoping that that continues! After all, I got my first modeling job in a competition with over 300 people competing at the Mall of America, and I met Mariah Carey and Interviewed her on the Today Show there. Also, I can't forget to mention the Mall of America opened on my Golden Birthday! Now it's finally my turn to get up there and show everyone what I've been working towards my whole life, and this time it's my voice! I'm confident that I will do a great job, but if I don't make it, I will only consider this yet another hurdle in my career. I prayed to God, that he would give me a sign to let me know whether to give this singing dream up and start focusing on other career goals or instead, continue to shoot for my dreams. I guess this is his answer. So whatever his will is for me, I'm content with. Whether this will be my break, or just a sign for me to continue for another opportunity up ahead, no one knows. What I do know is I have faith in wherever my life takes me because I have faith in God. Again, thank you all for everything, and thank you for always believing in me. You've always made me feel like the Star I strive to be. I appreciate and love you all with all my heart!

Please Keep me in your prayers!
Lots of Love,
Stephanie Guzman

Words of Support from Uncle Sly & Aunty Jeanette in TX...

Dear Stephanie,

You are destined to be a STAR! We all know it and we all believe in you and the gift the good Lord blessed you with. We support you no matter what happens with the outcome of the auditions.

I just wanted to share with you one thing that I just observed in your email. You mentioned that you have had some luck at the Mall of America. Just a thought! I have always been a believer that things come in three's. It happened to Jesus Christ, and the Bible cites many things in 3's.

1) You mentioned that you got your first modeling job at the same mall.
2) You mentioned that you met Mariah Carey at the same mall. Now....
3) You are about to have your wish come true! It comes in 3's.

You are destined for success in life! The joy you bring to others through your Spirit is already a grand reward. God bless you and best of luck on your mission. Smile a lot and let them hear you loud and clear.

All our love,

Your Uncle Coke & Aunt Jeanette